heavy hearted
i'm really confused on what to do...
in a real dilemma, one which i never thought i would be in
well i tink i just have too many hats to wear, too many parts to play n must focus. tis has really been a pressing matter and i seriously know not what to do...
as u know, i'm supposed to perform on sunday during oasis at around 630... however as we are short of rehearsals, i need to make time for them.. this week, being so packed on its own, i need to make time for them, which means sacrificing sunday too..
but two things are at stake.. because the rehearsal's at 1 and my sis' birthday is e same day and i feel really bad already to have e performance on her day.. N we're supposed to celebrate it in the morning wif dimsum.. Now i dunno whether can make it. Also my church's service is at 2 and i'm serving as e drummer.. not that i cant skip the service, but i dun wan to as it is still my church...
my mum has rightly complained to me about my loyalty to my church, KKMC.. indeed i've been too preoccupied wif my fren's church and its seriously affected my involvement in my own church.. i never thought i would face such a thing as i always viewed myself as staying in KKMC no matter what... besides i'm a youth leader so what would the consequences of me leaving on my youths?? i dun wan to even imagine...
haigh... need to seriously pray about this. need prayer too.. what to do?
pray that everything goes smoothly and i really need to back out on invlovement in their church.. not saying being involved is a bad thing but i need to reorganise my priorities...
Maybe God put me in this weird situation to make me depend on Him more and come back to Him as i have been drifting... well hopefully tml's church camp will help put my relationship wif Him back in place...
i'll just have to pray and wait upon Him..
Faith.
in a real dilemma, one which i never thought i would be in
well i tink i just have too many hats to wear, too many parts to play n must focus. tis has really been a pressing matter and i seriously know not what to do...
as u know, i'm supposed to perform on sunday during oasis at around 630... however as we are short of rehearsals, i need to make time for them.. this week, being so packed on its own, i need to make time for them, which means sacrificing sunday too..
but two things are at stake.. because the rehearsal's at 1 and my sis' birthday is e same day and i feel really bad already to have e performance on her day.. N we're supposed to celebrate it in the morning wif dimsum.. Now i dunno whether can make it. Also my church's service is at 2 and i'm serving as e drummer.. not that i cant skip the service, but i dun wan to as it is still my church...
my mum has rightly complained to me about my loyalty to my church, KKMC.. indeed i've been too preoccupied wif my fren's church and its seriously affected my involvement in my own church.. i never thought i would face such a thing as i always viewed myself as staying in KKMC no matter what... besides i'm a youth leader so what would the consequences of me leaving on my youths?? i dun wan to even imagine...
haigh... need to seriously pray about this. need prayer too.. what to do?
pray that everything goes smoothly and i really need to back out on invlovement in their church.. not saying being involved is a bad thing but i need to reorganise my priorities...
Maybe God put me in this weird situation to make me depend on Him more and come back to Him as i have been drifting... well hopefully tml's church camp will help put my relationship wif Him back in place...
i'll just have to pray and wait upon Him..
Faith.
posted by gAb at 10:08 AM
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